I have been so very fortunate to have experienced very little loss or 'endings' in my life. As beautiful as that is I think it makes any loss I do experience so much more painful.
As everyone knows I've been married for awhile. That is ending. It is so terrible and so excruciating that even writing about it feels like it will cause my heart to stop beating. A profound loss.
In that pain comes the acknowledgement that some people aren't meant to be together forever.
I love him, my heart overflows with love for him. But I know that our differences were greater than our similarities. No amount of love or desire can change those things.
I cherish him and our years together. I wish him the absolute best and will always love him.
So please love my new binge body, eating is therapeutic. Please encourage me on the new road I'm taking and please be kind, it was a momentous and extraordinary love and I will miss it.
With that I accept our ending and look forward to new beginnings.
* this is all I will say about us
